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Half Moon.

Engraved upon my soul

Memories of you.

Dreaming, drifting

I wondering past

the house

where we once lived.

Where home fires burnt

yet, now I see

another flame

does glow.

At a glance

into a window

another face

not mine.

Living in another time

hear my cries

I feel I am dying.

Still need your touch

Forbidden, forgiven

forsaken,  alone.

Tears roll down

sunken cheeks

on pale face.

Desperation

I hurt.

Decisions made

in moments haste

The last look

on your most

handsome face.

The past should

remain in the

corners of my

sub-conscious mind.

For they are

too painful

too  soiled

forgotten, lost.

Therefore

I banished from my heart

these exhausted dreams

As only pieces

of my broken heart

remain.

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Butterflies and Moonbeams

 

Hidden

In the dark

Alone

Waiting for the end.

My time

Spent concealed

In my cocoon of despair.

Wanting to feel

The sun

Upon my translucent skin.

Brightest colours

Big and bold

One day, I’ll begin.

Every caterpillar

Has a chance

To be the butterfly.

So I’m told

Therefore I wait

In coldest days

Till I shall fly.

Until my wings

Of gold unfold

I dream of moonbeams in the sky.

The ugly caterpillar

I may be

Until my cast does break.

Then I will shine

Yes, I shall be

The butterfly, awake!

The end!

 

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No-body’s fool!

You don’t understand,

I’m not as brave

as I may seem.

While my heart breaks

I’m dangerous.

I can hear her laughing

in the back ground.

One day

she’ll be wailing

I won’t be around.

I’m nobody’s fool

What the hell

are you playing at?

Please don’t be

so cruel

Why can’t you

come right out

and say it

I can take it.

This bed grew
so much larger

And now winter

feels so cold

the smell of the rain

in the wind haunts me.

claws of betrayal

have settled deep

into the ground

I wait

for footsteps

to enter

this house

has no sound.

Rumours
spread like wild fire

So then tell me

what’s her name?

I know that you

will not return.

It was written

in her love letters

that I found

All placed together

scarlet ribbon bound.

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Parting!


This is the last time

I’ll be left to feel this way

To be quite honest

I’ve no interest 

in what you say.

All I want

 is for you 

to stay away

As I struggle 

to face another day.

 The way I see it 

you want another war

I don’t have the strength 

to fight you anymore

I can’t remember 

what we are doing this for

And the way 

I am left feeling

completely raw.

 You are so funny

I laugh until I cry

This complete torment

do you remember why?

I could change

as you could change

 if we try

But as for living with you

I would rather die.

 All you need to do 

is to set me free

You no longer have 

a hold on me

I’ll take this change 

to run away

to flee.

Take a step back 

and the entire picture

see.

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Bloody Valentine!

Woke

or did I?

Was I already awake?

It was morning

it may have been morning!

Unable to tell 

how long I’d been sleeping

What you left 

was not worth keeping.

 I couldn’t move

my body numb

Black and blue 

from your fist kiss

How much love

to bash in my head?

Another day

I’ll have to hide in bed

 My face hurts

so swollen

I think my jaw

is broken.

No-one can see me 

in this state

They’ll misread your love

as pure hate.

 Sober 

you are different 

so gentle,

so kind.

You beg for forgiveness

and promise 

last time.

You’re so remorseful

with tears 

in your eyes.

Just like the last time

I believe your lies.

 Yet, this time is different

quite different

you see.

When you leave.

go off to work today

I’ll take my reprieve. 

The only solution  

a sacrifice

I’ll take my own life.

 To save myself

and no longer

be 

your wife!

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Broken!

Broken

I feel broken

you look broken.

Frustrated

nothing said

words unspoken.

Confusion

devastation

heartbreaking.

Not my life

forgiven

forsaken.

Hollow eyes

hollow soul

hollow look.

Not the person

she used to be

I shook.

Shaken

shatter

stir 

something’s wrong.

Lost

torn

lost

worn

lost

gone.

Different

altered

such a shame.

Excuses lame

not a life

just a game.

Gob-smacked

speechless.

Smoked smack

outrageous.

Stolen

disappearing

vanished,

Sad

down

hurt

clown

banished.

Unknown

unrecognizable

disguise.

Untruths

fabrication

plain lies.

Bullet proof

no rescue

no saviour.

Distant

anger

fury

bad behaviour.

Wash my hands

walk away

leave

go.

Participation 

of this destruction

no.

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Sweetest Love?

How could you just depart?

not ever a farewell kiss

My salty tears taste divine

as they roll onto my lips.

Shaking in my hands

the last words

you scribbled down

The words melt,

leaving tear stained marks

as I tear your note into strips.

I’ve read these lines a million times

wrote them

two million before

But returning is not in the bargain

I’ve been deserted again!

When we met

I knew it was not forever

why did you leave so soon

I thought

maybe you’d have been different

not another role

another game.

What do I do

with the letters you wrote

do I throw them away.

Do I read them

till well revised

then burn my heart instead?

Then there is your ghost

it haunts me

every night

every day

Even if it abandoned me

that won’t work

you live inside my head.

Who’ll replace

the kisses you gave

who will hold me

when I am so alone

What will I do

with the space beside me

the empty space in my room?

How can I replace

the lover you were

you loved me so well

The guilt will never leave me

of what I destroyed

inside my womb.

No sweet love

I won’t forget you

not until you’re dying day

I will learn

to live without you

right now

that’s all I can do

Every time

you see the sun set

every time

you smell the rain

May they all remind you

this love for you

was always true.

Remain with me

if only in my thoughts

there you will always stay

I will not scare

when your spirit moves over me

it will be my delight

We will always be together

inside my heart

my soul

my head

You will forever love me,

if only in my dreams

as I lay tonight

inside your bed.

©   MM 2012


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Even Your Blue Eyes!

He was hurt

by my rejection

I pretended

I had not seen.

He asked,

where I was going

So I told him

where I had been.

He offer me a proposal

Then begged me

to come clean

So I told him

about my husband

Then he said

“what does that mean?”

Even your blues eyes

could not hold me

Those tears you shed

Won’t make me stay

You money

does not control me

I must leave this place today

He confessed

his love for me

I laughed,

as he did lie

He said

he’d make me happy

Well, I’d like to see him try

For me he’d cross all oceans

And even reach the sky

The times

I’ve heard these tainted lies

This time I think

I am going to cry

Even your blue eyes

could not hold me

Those endless

untruthful things you say

Close the door

return to my bed

Tomorrow is another day.

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RING OF FATE!

Wandering around
the ring of my life
Started out weak
needing to be strong.
Rebuilt, every piece
of my shattered soul
The realisation
I was completely wrong.
Much fortune
stood in front of me
I almost reached out
I nearly touched it
Bright
shinning light
blinded me.
Losing control
bit by bit by bit.
Stumble around
in darkness for years.
A trick
played by my sightless fate.
All hope, and determination
burnt to ashes
My love had died
or turned to hate.
Abandonment
loneliness
left to dissolve.
No courage or
self-esteem
only pain
Pain that gnawed
at my heartless soul,
Walk into the fires of hell,
You’ll never escape again.
Floating down stream
drifting or drowning
Until another blow
forces me to halt.
Will I ever break
away from the blame?
Surely, this was all not my fault.
Ending
straight back
where we began.
Full circle
from start to end
How will I ever heal this heart?
will my brokenness ever mend?
 I think
I need to start again?
How many rounds
before
I am meant to be,
Maybe
I tried too hard,
Either way
I long to be free!