Unrequited Love!

Wander though my mind

corridors of my despair.

Capture these deepest, darkest

thoughts I hold of you.

Feel this shiver

that traces my entire body

as I read your words.

Grasp the essence of my desire.

I can almost feel your warm breath

as if it dances on my skin.

I have never wanted someone

to touch me

as desperately

as I want you!

A tear rolls down my cheek

a sadden sign

I dream of you

my unobtainable love.

I hold this constant hopefulness

that one day

one day!

Alas, my romantic heart is eternally punished

it seems deemed that I shall die

with a heart

full of unexpressed love.

MedusaMoon 2015

Summer Loving!

I woke,
to find him near me.
Gently
I touch his skin
feeling his warmth.
Moving closer
he stirs.
Aroused
he enters.
His hardness
firm and bold.
Passion
desire
intimate love.
The sun shines
through the window
A beautiful start
to the day!
MM 2015

A life most beautiful!

The day I stood at the foot of a mountain, I discovered my insignificance. The walk that led me deep into the woods opened my eyes to the magnificence of creation. It was a lonely tear that fell into the ocean which allowed me to connect with the whole. The moment I allowed myself to sit within the darkness that surrounded me, my soul found illumination.

I had walked in the valley of death for years, lost and confused. The only way to survive was to eliminate this painful existence with every escapism and avoidance method created by man.  An empty vessel wondering from shore to shore in hope, that one day, I may once again feel alive. To walk in the sunshine, I needed to experience my shadow self, embrace those disowned parts-of-self that were the cause of my greatest shame.  I needed to acknowledge that these were a part of my psychodynamics, the process of being human. I learnt to sit in silence, as my inner demons manifested themselves, to gain a deeper understanding of the purposefulness of these darker forces.  I am human; the essence of being human is to explore both the dark and the light.

The greatest challenge was the realisation that everything I have ever been told was a fabrication. A structure created by man for man to exploit and control man, a nonsensical establishment for profit and gain! Then I found my freedom and was able to break down the walls of my own prison. I discovered individualisation and the courage to stand alone amid the madding crowd.

My journey led me to discover the art of psychotherapy, philosophy, Zen, Osho, Jung, Mindfulness, Buddhism, Shamanism, Paganism, art, music, poetry, compassion, non-judgemental kindness, empathy, humanity, love and grace. I am in a constant flow of learning, as an eternal student it is an exciting time to be evolving and awakening, as I move toward a more enlightened stance.  I hold my past with an element of understanding and forgiveness, I see my future as the exciting and unpredictable unknown, but most importantly, I feel the essence of each moment, for within this very moment, I experience life.

MM 2015

Choice!

I don’t want to be the voice of reason,

I want to be the voice of innovation.

I cannot follow the conformist

If I want to walk in freedom.

To be able to understand order,

I need to experience chaos.

To feel the extent of the light,

I need to experience my own darkness.

To fully hold love for you,

Firstly, I need to accept me.

MM 2015

I am!

I survived things that confused me,
I survived things that abused me,
I survived things that destroyed me,
I survived things that nearly killed me,
I survived things that tried to break me,
I survived things that criticised me,
I survived the darkness that surrounded me,
I will continue to fight and survive,
I will never lose my faith in humanity,
I will never stop loving others,
I will keep being more compassion,
I will keep being me.

MedusaMoon 2015

Compassion!

Maybe one day

you will understand what it feels like

to walk in my shoes.

Perhaps a time will come

when I will be able to fit into your shoes too!

As I stand in front of you

I see a reflection of myself.

The parts I like

the bits I detest.

So when I judge you am I not judging me?

For we are all made from the same stardust

One interconnected source of love!

If only we knew

would we love each other more?

MM c 2015

Sometimes….

Sometimes
in life
people say things that they shouldn’t.
Sometimes
people wish they had said something
before the moment passed.
Sometimes
people wait their whole life
wanting to say something
but cannot find the courage.
Sometimes
it is just too late
to say those
“three little words”
that can change everything
or nothing.
I wish I knew how to say what I felt….
sometimes.

MedusaMoon  c 2015