FEAR!

 

My name is fear

I resided deep inside

sitting right next to hate

but a good distance from pride

I roar a sinister tune

I am capable of crushing all hope

then sadistically watch

as you desperately struggle to cope

I am so powerful

I make strength shiver

I jump on top of courage

I watch her cowardly slither

I am capable of drumming

up the most ferocious dread

I can provoke rage

as she climbs inside

your confused head

I will entice control

I can manipulate power

I enjoy watching optimism diminished

as she turns bitterly sour

I work alongside shame

as he is the most powerful emotion

he will cripple you

with one wicked glance

when we work together

guess what?

you do not stand a chance

we may let you play with joy

for a day or maybe two

the moment you feeling confident

we will sweep down onto you

we will steal away all happiness

bringing misery along

we will dance around your mind

till every essence of love has gone

we are great mates with you ego

as we play you

such a fool

calculating and cunning

insensitive and extremely cruel

my name is fear

I am your greatest doubt

the only way to destroy me

open you heart

push me out!

 

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ToxicAffair!

To the chick

who could not love me

I have one final

thing to say

hand on heart

I now forgive you

as I watch you

walk away

all those nights

spend wondering

what the hell

was wrong with me?

now I  fully understand

you were just too

blind to see

maybe the pedestal

I had you on

was way too high

for you were unable to see

my inner fears

how hard I would cry

maybe I gave too much

I just wanted to get it right

I justified my commitment

by my countless

restless nights

waiting by a toneless phone

keeping my diary free

pacing around this empty space

recalling how you would leave

once you had just make love

to me

telling myself

that this was true love

measured by my pain

being a man

it was really hard to counteract

my mountains

of my internalised shame

I wonder if I was first

or last

on your list

oh yes, please tell me

why you only called me

to come fetch you

when you were dangerously pissed?

such a fool

my deluded projection

thought you were

such a victim

I wanted to offer you my protection

how you constantly spoke

of this fantasy love divine

when all I wanted was to find

my companion

my partner in crime

thank you for the resilience

you kindly gave to me

for allowing me

to open my eyes

as I was too blind

to see

through your overinflated ego

the woman

you claimed to be

when I could not face

this brutal narcissistic abuse

I found the courage to leave

the rage to recognise

this destruction dysfunction dynamic

I found the strength

to finally grieve

now when she calls me

every day

just to ensure that I am fine

when she spends hours just talking

so generous

with her time

the way she holds me in that space

the one you would not occupy

the gentle was she hugs my fears

when I have lost all courage to try

she shows me how she loves me

in the most simplistic way

she tells me all the words

the ones you struggled to say

now I know the difference

you gave me something to compare

and it hurts

because I suddenly realise

that you just did not care

to the woman

who did not love me

I have one final thing to say

if you do not truly love him

do not be a bitch

and walk away.

 

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ToxicLove!

 

To the man

who could not love me

I have one final

thing to say

hand on heart

I now forgive you

as I watch you

walk away

all those nights

spend wondering

what the hell

was wrong with me?

now I  fully understand

you were just too

blind to see

maybe the pedestal

I had you on

was way too high

for you were unable to see

the lonely tears

that I would cry

maybe I tried to hard

I just wanted to get it right

I justified my commitment

by my countless

sleepless nights

waiting by a toneless phone

keeping my diary free

pacing around this empty space

recalling how you would leave

once you had make love

to me

telling myself

that this was true love

measured by my pain

all those love songs

told me it was so

helped to counteract

my mountains

of my internalised shame

I wonder if I was first

or last

on your list

oh yes, please tell me

why you only called me

late at night

when you were pissed?

such a fool

my deluded projection

thought you were

the man who would offer me

his powerful protection

as those fairy tales spoke

how this fantasy love divine

all the energy we lost

was I just

your favourite waste of time?

thank you for the resilience

you kindly gave to me

for allowing me

to open my eyes

as I was too blind

to see

through your overinflated ego

the man

you claimed to be

when I could not face

this brutal narcissistic abuse

I found the courage to leave

the rage to recognise

this destruction dysfunction dynamic

I found the strength

to finally grieve

now when he calls me

every day

just to ensure that I am fine

when he spends hours just talking

so generous

with his time

the way he holds me in that space

the one you would not occupy

the gentle way he wipes my tears

when I feel I need to cry

he shows me how he loves me

in the most simplistic way

he tells me all the words

the ones you struggled to say

now I know the difference

you gave me something to compare

and it hurts

because I suddenly realise

that you just did not care

to the man

who did not love me

I have one final thing to say

if you do not truly love her

be a man

and walk away.

 

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Gaia

She faced

the realms

of a broken

world

what she saw

simply broke

her heart

she watch

men destroyed

as humanity

tore itself

apart

she wept

as her voice

was silenced

stilled

a Goddess

an Orb

this woman

she was

extremely strong

willed

with a roar

of thunder

she said

NOMORE

she watch

kingdoms damaged

as knights went

to

WAR

she raged up

a storm

she blew

with all her might

tired of watching

injustice

fighting to

prove it was

right

she summoned

every ocean

with a cascade

of emotion

washed up

on every shore

she saw rich men

starving

whilst stealing

the riches

of the

poor

she saw

forest burning

down to the

ground

she heard the

chitter and chatter

of man’s

doctrinaire

sound

ashes upon ashes

dust upon dust

the scares she wore

on her injured

crust

reminder of the

sacrifice she had

to make

slowly

Gaia is dying

yet man still

wants to

take

everything

for profit

anything

for gain

but it is

all in vain

Gaia is dying

does nobody

care

I suppose

we will

when Gaia

is no longer

here!

 

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Dragon Warrior and the Wizard King

If one listened carefully

the winds that blow

through the depths

of the Valley of DarkVarte

it has been written

that one would hear

this sage

that is

about

to

unfold.

WildFlower lay hidden, underneath the overgrowth of thorn bushes and discarded Goala leaves that fell off huge Hognor trees growing close by.  These ancient Hognor trees were superannuated trees whose sole purpose was shelter, as they had outgrown their own usefulness of providing fruit.  Those watery lemony Goala balls that were sought after by the Olga tribe residing in the Valley Olgwana about 1000 lightshines away.

Trees with no purpose

a valley consumed by darkness

a young woman seeking meaning

the beginning

and

the end

meeting by chance

as a tale unfolds.

WildFlower had sought shelter from the storm of Pendaler and these bold and sturdy Hognor trees had welcomed her into the deep dark valley and provided a home for the past three years.  The three years laid in complete darkness had taken its toll, as the blackness was creeping into her heart, which was now surrounded by darkness.  It was as if vines were intertwined, crashing every breath she stole, and causing a sharp pain deep inside her soul.  The coldness of her chosen isolation was taking its toll, and as she sat in deep contemplation waiting for the call, she pondered the path that lay before her.  WildFlower was enslaved by an astriosplanet without a soul.  Her clan had watched the rise of DarkVarte and his evil merry men, the astriosplanet waited for the rise of a hero. The universe waited for the one who would lead them back into a time of lightshines to counterbalance the darkbeams that had been cast over the lands by DarkVarte.

When he stole the astriosplanet.

WildFlower placed her weary head onto a log to listen to the call of the wild but the sound of silence was placed heavy upon her brow. She drifted into the realms of daywalking, which was the sphere of outer obit, the place where tales are written and hope was weaved into the silken treads of time. Drifting deeper into timeless motion, sinking, falling into the deepest abyss, silence screams could be heard by lost Saffroniar maidens, voiceless damsels in distress suspended in time. The hopelessness that was lost, the hope that could no longer serve a purpose, lost hope just hanging around.

Suddenly, she was hanging upside down suspended in motionless space.  With his fierce fiery voice the Dragon spoke:

“Rise WildFlower

you are a chosen one

rise WildFlower

there are battles to be lost

but wars to be won

hidden  too long

away from the sun

rise WildFlower

your mission has begun”.

She bolted awake, as the Dragon’s exhaled last breath, she feared the forceful fire would extinguish her, but it stopped, right in front of her Ajna. Open. See. Know.

WildFlower arose, shook off the Goala leaves, she bowed to greet the Hognor trees for their shelter and informed them she was ready.  A very ancient Hognor tree made his way through to where WildFlower stood, brazen, ready to fly.

He bent down and whispered inside her ear:

“There is a Wizard King, he waits for you”.

“Find him,

he holds the key

but first you have to travel to CasGowner

there you till meet the Salamanca,

she has a map”.

“Go now, tell no-one of your mission, use your gifts they will serve you”.

With that last remark he stood tall and shook his branches until he uprooted himself.  His mission was now complete, he had lived many a dayshine, experienced timeless darkbeams, and he was weary, he had held this mission and it had cost him many an astriophere.  He had fought the hungry ghosts who sought the book of life, alongside those who wanted to know the meaning of all existence for power and control.  The thirsty wells of pointlessness seeking fulfilment, the lost meaningless forces that sought completion, they had all sought him out to find the key. He had just met her and she shone brighter than the Sapphires that lit up the green skies. He smiles as he fell to the ground with an enormous crash. An echo ran through the Realms of all time, this was the sound the astriosplanet had waited for since the birth of all time, for this was the sound of all hope. What a power noise it made.

“What gifts?” thought WildFlower

“I do not recall receiving………”

“Psssssssssssss”

A hissing sound pieced WildFlower thoughts mid-sentence, she was startled by the sudden interruption.

“Huh” was all she could mutter

“Psssss, over here” the hissing sound directed

Wildflower wandered over to where the sound had been heard somewhere deep within the brambles, thorns and overgrowth. She came in direct contact with this tiny lizard-type-thing, who was slimy and scaly and had darting eyes that were able to notice every movement within a dayshine range.

“I know who you are little beasty” “I was watching you” he bellowed and his breath was a think green acidy stink that killed any vegeration in its path.

“Ugh, that is creepy, why were you watching me?” said an alarmed Wildflower

“To steal you secrets, borrow your darkmoods and destroy all daystarlets you may hold” he could hardly contain his wicked laugher.

“Well, I do not have any, so I have nothing to steal” announced a proud and rather innocent WildFlower

“Oh beasty, beasty, beasty” he tutted

“Why they chose a child?” he looked through her as if he could read her Orb.

“You have no idea do you?” he said after reading her for a moment.

An Orb is the imprint that each creator receives at completion which will be the trueprint of their destiny.  No many creators were skilled or talented enough to read Orbs but NixRoath, he was an outcast, his was a student to DarkVarte before he lost DarkVarte’s favour.  Their relationship dynamic was the old classic tale of master and servant, proof that as long as creators lived in the astriosplanet, there will be a fight for power and control. So NixRoath’s gifts were plenty but he needed WildFlower for personal gain, as he knew that she was the one to set the astriosplanet to rights.  She was the key, the key to his freedom to walk in the dayshine and not be imprisoned by the darkness of DarkVarte.  Do not get him wrong, he had no intention of remorse or to seek forgiveness, no, no, no, he wanted to rule the astriosplanet. Well of course he did, this may be a new saga but it is by far not an old tale!

“Where are you heading beasty?” he spouted

“Why?” proclaimed WildFlower, giving his a disconcerting stare.

“Let me be your guide, you will not even need to pay me!” he cunningly tried to manipulate her.

WildFlower had the softest Orb and so she said he could walk with her to CasGowner.  He tried to enquire as to why she was travelling to CasGowner but she was not going to give away her secrets, as he had just stated he was there to steal them from her.  As they headed out towards the edge of the Valley of DarkVarte he asked if he could travel under her cloak, as the dayshines would burn his skin. Her kindness and compassion outshine most Orbs and so she lifted him onto her right hand side and hid him under her collar. The stillness of the think auro was chocking them as they stumbled in the dark fighting their way out.

Far beyond all astriopheres the EiDoLons were watching the saga as it was unfolding.  EiDoLa were content with this strange meeting between WildFlower and NixRoath, as she foresaw a greater daystarlet but the EiDoLons were concerned.

“Stop”

WildFlower suddenly bolted, whilst NixRoath hid away under her collar, both uncertain how to respond to this strange sound which neither could recognise.

“Stop”

A sound bellowed from behind a huge Hognor tree, the crackling of Goala leaves rattled loudly as an approaching object moved closer to where they stood rigid with anticipation.  WildFlower used her Anahata to sense if this rapidly approaching ‘thing’ was either friend or foe.

WildFlower was the most gifted creator in the astriosplanet; she had abilities that only the EiDoLons held. Her purity shone bright and her softness could be felt by those who came into contact with her. She was unaware that she was so gifted and thought that the abilities she held were felt by all creators.  Even her tribe of Dragon Warriors were unaware of the full extent of her gifts but they knew she was the chosen one. For it had been written in all time that a day will come when a heroine will walk the ether and change the darkness into light.

Stood before WildFlower was the most beautiful creator she had ever seen.  He had a mane of long black hair and his flesh was soft as silk. His eyes were big, and deep inside you could see tunnels and tunnels of timelessness. As he moved closer, WildFlower stood brazen trying not to show her fear. He kneeled down on his forelegs and spoke to WildFlower who could suddenly understand the noises he was making. His breath was sweet and welcoming, WildFlower climbed onto his back and with that her galloped forward towards the edge of the Valley of DarkVarte.

“My name is Stallionie” he mused

“I have been order to carry you to the Valley of CasGower”.  “Who is the creator you have hidden?”

NixRoath was a shiftshaker and so he changed into a Neon, which meant his true self was disguised and as a Neon, he had no essence so could not be predicted.

“His name is NixRoath and he is going to show me to CasGower, he is a creator and not a DarkVare”.

Everyone knew that the DarkVare were not to be trusted but if you have an imprint of a creator, then you can be trusted to keep you honour. NixRoath was the bastard nameless child of DarkVarte when he had stolen EiDoLa greatest creator and bore a child with her.  It was a brutal ownership, as she was not predicted to bear a child with him.  EiDoLa painfully ensured that she died at the birth of NixRoath so that she would not have to bear the pain of this evil king. From that day forward they say that EiDoLa’s Anahata lost its light, and the grief she felt could be heard over the astriopheres of all time. A song that holds an eternal sadness! This is how WildFlower was created; she was the final tear that fell from EiDoLa’s Anahata.  EiDoLa lost all her hope that day and the tiny drop of hope that fell into the ether was caught by her delicate hand and she created WildFlower.  The hope of the astriosplanet! She could no longer hold the burden as her Anahata died that dayshine.

As the trio headed towards to edge of the Valley of DarkVarte, the abandoned place where nothing grew anymore, everything was there just dying, rotting and becoming a nothingness. The auro seemed to clear more rapidly and WildFlower could smell freshness in the distant.  She had almost forgotten the smell of fresh auro, as she had been dancing in the ether for the past three years. Whilst in this trancelike state, she was unaware of time and space, therefore she was uncertain how many astriopheres had past.

Many astriopheres ago the Valley DarkVarte belonged to the UsherBow creators and they were the most gifted creators in the astriosplanet and could heal.  UsherVille was a beautiful Valley and there was an abundance of everything the astriosplanet needed.  The UsherBow were the notorious for the rainbows that were erected out of their Shasraras and the myth foretold that there were in direct contact with EiDoLa.  It was as if they had telephone wires attached to the top of their heads and had a hot line to the Gods. They were the chosen ones and sent to the astriosplanet to create compassion and loving kindness and held the greatest magic of the astriosplanet.  If any creator was to meet an UsherBow, they say that the shine remains with them and they may just have their Shasrara opened, if an UsherBow was to bless them with the shine.  Once the Shasrara was opened then it was believed that a creator would have a direct connection with EiDoLa. Creators from all around the astriosplanet would travel many astriopheres to seek out the shine and those whom needed healing would come to UsherVille. No creator was ever turned away, as the UsherBow creators were of the purest shine.

It was only a matter of astriopheres before DarkVarte heard of the UsherBows and he decided to take over UsherVille and steal the shine. He had a deeper rooted ambition to capturing UsherVille, he wanted direct contact with EiDoLa. He wanted to barter for another wife. The myth he holds was that he found the shine when he brutalised EiDia, as she was the direct blood line of EiDoLa and held the most magnificent shine.  But before we start to think this is one of those love stories about good changing evil, do not!  DarkVarte did not care for other creators, oh no, he wanted the shine as to him it was a drug, an obsession.  Furthermore, he thought that by consuming the shine he would become greater than EiDoLa and take over the astriosplanet.

othing grew in DarkVarte Valley anymore, the entire place burnt out the day DarkVarte slaughtered the last UsherBow. As her shine died, the scream of her death raced through Valleys of all time.  On that day, the shine of many creators Anahata’s either died or faded into the darkest shine ever felt which in turn left them shellshaking. There was a cry that could be heard along the astrioplane of all time, the myth states that is was EiDoLa’s saddest song; a song that still whistles in the winds of catastrophe.  It was believed that if a creator were to hear it on a daystarlet, all their hope would be stolen and crashed. No-one knew when they would predict a daystarlet, and therefore, it was a real fear when approaching catastrophe, one could lose all hope and that would diminish a creator instantly. Most creators died inside when this occurred and they become shellshakers, rattling around hopelessly in a trancelike state.

The edge of the Valley of DarkVarte was approaching rapidly.  Stallionie had legs built as strong as steel, and speed as fast as lightening. He was swift, as he gracefully swept through the Hognor trees, darting skilful between their thick branches which were sprung around the Valley, as if they were disused body parts, which had no purpose and were left to rot. DarkVarte fury had been felt in this once beautiful UsherVille Valley, when he realised that he was not able to steal the UsherBows’ shine, he ensured that nothing that resided here would have a purpose. Everything that lived in this flourishing haven was destroyed, as he knew how it would affect Gaia and all creators who lived in her.

The UsherBow were renowned for having the most beautiful Vishuddas and as they arose each dayshine, they wailed a merry tune, which in turn fed UsherVille with abundance.  But one dayshine, or was it a moonbeam, either way, the songs they use to wail turned into a scream, the scream of DarkVarte’s retribution.  From that astriosphere onwards, the most painful scream swept through the ether announcing his pending destruction. It was a melody for Gaia, as they felt the dawning of her annihilation and the prediction of war. They wailed this tune out into the ether so it would remain within the realm of all astriosplanes, so that creator can prepare an army strong enough to defeat DarkVarte’s retribution.

“She faced the realms of a broken astriosplanet

what she saw simply broke her heart

she watch creators destroyed

as humanity tore itself apart

she wept as her voice was silenced, stilled

this creation she was extremely strong willed

with a roar of thunder she said “NOMORE”

she watch kingdoms damaged as knights went to WAR

she raged up a storm she blew with all her might

tired of watching injustice fighting to prove it was right

she summoned every ocean

with a cascade of emotion

washed upon every shore

she saw rich creators starving

whilst stealing the riches of the poor

she saw forest burning down to the ground

she heard the chitter and chatter of DarkVarte’s doctrinaire sound

ashes upon ashes, dust upon dust

the scars she wore on her injured crust

reminder of the sacrifice she had to make

slowly Gaia is dying yet man still wants to take

everything for profit

anything for gain

but it is all in vain

Gaia is dying does nobody care

I suppose we will when Gaia

is

no

longer

here!

Moreover, he knew that it would hurt EiDoLa deeply, and that was his main intention, to destroy the woman he once loved, many a moonbeam ago.

DarkVarte was a brutal creator, he was the coldest man in the entire astriosplanet of all time, but he had not always been this cold and calculating monster who raced around Gaia with such vengeance that his breath was made of fireballs and his fists were created out of cold steel. Many an astriopheres ago, DarkVarte great, great pre-creators held a different blueprint and carrying an identifier which rang with a more gentle tone.  The identifier that belonged to DarkVarte’s father was known as AlphaThrone; AlphaThrone was a noble and well respected KinFolk.  They resided across the astriosplanet from the EiDoLa and DarkVarte’s father AlphaMayo was in close communications with EiDoLa’s mother EvAilie.

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If one listened carefully

the winds that blow

through the depths

of the Valley of DarkVarte

it has been written

that one would hear

this sage

that is

about

to

unfold.

WildFlower lay hidden, underneath the overgrowth of thorn bushes and discarded Goala leaves that fell off huge Hognor trees growing close by.  These ancient Hognor trees were superannuated trees whose sole purpose was shelter, as they had outgrown their own usefulness of providing fruit.  Those watery lemony Goala balls that were sought after by the Olga tribe residing in the Valley Olgwana about 1000 lightshines away.

Trees with no purpose

a valley consumed by darkness

a young woman seeking meaning

the beginning

and

the end

meeting by chance

as a tale unfolds.

WildFlower had sought shelter from the storm of Pendaler and these bold and sturdy Hognor trees had welcomed her into the deep dark valley and provided a…

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Winds of Change Blow West

I watched

as my ego

danced with its

own self-importance

I stood by

thus allowing

the revenge

of my

victimization

to cause more

harm

I noticed

how my fear

turned love

into hate

I saw my vanity

staring

stark raving madly

back at me

stripping away

the essence of

my worth

as if it was

disused

war paint

I felt my

internalised rage

rip down

monstrous mountains

separating

you from me

my sadness

rained down

empty windows

streaming light

formulating rainbows

shining bright

I noticed

my compassion

embracing my

inner demons

gently removing

the painfulness

I held the

unconditional love

of the universe

as it wrapped

around my loneliness

as petals of the

Lotus Flower

enclosing my

shamefulness

washing it away

I found my

humanity

kindness

understanding

forgiveness

acceptance

planted under

the tree of life

I watch

the change in me

effect

the change

I see.

 

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Suppression

The iron fist

wrapped around

humanities neck

the tick tock

of a time bomb

waiting to explode

the red rawness

of societies’

straight jacket

the drowning voice

lost within an uncaring crowd

the weight of humiliation

even he strongest knight kneels

the loose grains of sand

moulded into brick walls

the helplessness of

victimization

the coldness of

a bitter heart

the vengeance of a

woman’s  scorn

the lost pride

of a superstar

the fear

of unpredictable chaos

the normality

of constant boredom

the wasted talent

of the starving artist

the cracking rage

of the sweetest voice

time slipping away

from a meaningless life

the aging body of the superego

the powerlessness of

that last breath

the constricted freedom

the vice

that is hopelessly

formulated

as

a

life!

 

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