How could you just depart,
not ever a farewell kiss
My salty tears taste divine
as they roll onto my lips
Shaking in my hands the last words you scribbled down
The words melt, leaving tear stained mars,
as I tear your note into strips.
I’ve read these lines a million times,
wrote them two million before
But returning is not in the bargain,
I’ve been deserted again!
When we met I knew it was not forever,
but why did you leave so soon
I thought maybe you’d have been different,
not another role, another game.
What do I do with the letters you wrote,
do I throw them away
Do I read them until I’ve learnt them,
then burn my heart instead?
Then there is your ghost that haunts me,
every night and every day
Even if it abandoned me, that won’t work,
you live inside my head.
Who’ll replace these kisses you gave me,
who will hole me when I am so alone
What will I do with the space beside me,
the empty space in my room?
How can I replace the lover you were to me,
you loved me so well
The guilt will never leave me,
of what I destroyed inside my womb.
No sweet love I won’t forget you,
not until you’re dying day
But I will learn to live without you,
right now that’s all I can do
Every time you see the sun set,
every time you smell the rain
May they all remind you,
that this love for you was always true.
Remain with me if only in my thoughts,
yes there you will always stay
I will not scare when your spirit moves over me,
it will be my delight
We will always be together inside my heart,
my soul, my head
You will forever love me, if only in my dreams,
as I lay inside your bed tonight.