Narcissist Love!

You talk

of love

well

how

abusive

can love

be

you speak

of trust

then

constantly

deceitfully

lie

to me

you ask

to see

my

vulnerability

then

strip away

the

essence

of my

fragility

my heart

has been

batted

broken

bruised

my soul

is a

lighter

shade of

blue

but

this sense

of self

has nothing

to do

with us

I was

sad

and

lonely

long

before

I lay

eyes on

you

no

you were

my

hopefulness

a knight

in shinning

armour

so carelessly

ignoring

the warning

signs

I loved you

nonetheless

therefore

if I appear

to be

slightly

disappointed

by your

action

do not

be alarmed

I blame

the

laws

of

attraction

manipulatively

charmed

as I take

my leave

today

we walk

away

nothing

meaningful

left

to say

my loneliness

it wants

to cry

but

unfortunately

my resilient

stubbornness

had

already

said

goodbye.

MM c 2015

See Me!

one day
you will
truly
see
the real
me
on that day
you will
notice
my vulnerability
you will
see
the scars
reminders
of the
battle
I fought
just
to be
me
touch
these wounds
feel how
painful
they truly
are
try to
understand me
for
it is
not my
brokenness
that describes
me
nor my

dysfunctionality
sex
colour
status
mental health or
disability
which
classify
me
no,
it is
my
resilience
compassion
softness
kindness
sensitivity
for these
the things
which
truly
define
who
I choose
to be
so please
do not
pity me
label me
judge me
for can
you not
see
these
shadowy
parts
inside of me
are the very
same parts
you do not
want to see
for WE
are made
of the
same
stardust
blood
sweat
and
tears
so
connect
with me
then we
will
both be
free
from the
propaganda
of our
society
teaches us
too blind
to see
the more
I look
at you
from
my heart
the more
I see
that you
are very
much the
same
as me.

MM c2015

Morning Glory revisited!

Sitting

closely

next

to me

on the 37

minute

train

journey

whilst

allowing

your imagination

to run

wildly free

images of

you and

me

in places

no-one

is really

meant to

be

indulging

in lust

no-one

is suppose

to see

yes

silent lover

keep those

erotic

memories

as they

belong to

you

so

share them

only

with

me.

MM c2015

Mourning the Death of Ego!

Delicate

Willow tree

dancing

with

the wind

as he

sings

to her

a

wilder  tune

a song

that shakes her

very core

as she

reaches

for the

moon

whist begging

him for more

dancing

in the

starlight

daintily

swinging

to the

rhythm

of a

new dawn

on a

fresh

November

morn

content

within her

majesty

connected

to everything

yet

completely

free

happily

constructing

an illusion

of whom

she

was meant

to be.

Until a time

a storm

arose

heading for

her shore

she felt

consumed

by

panic

as she

feared she

could

no longer

withstand it

any more.

The storm

it raged

around her

head

stripping away

the essence

of her

being

ripping

apart

her protect

bark

her

leaves

were

beautifully

green

now

stolen

fallen

thus

left to die

until she

had nothing

to

define her

as she

questioned

WHY!

No self

remained

she felt

that she was

broken

mourning the

death

of who

she use

to be

an existential

crisis

who the hell

is me?

Look

deep inside

what will

you see

a construction

created

is not whom

I choose to

be.

Spring arrive

in ample

time

a rebirth

had began

each new bud

that was

reborn

it

gave hope

to each

new one

suddenly

this Willow tree

was in

brightest

bloom

to celebrate

her new

creation

she called upon

the moon

“dance

with me,

tell

the wind

I miss his

wildest tune,

now

I see

who

I am

meant

to be

liberation

dear moon”.

Willow tree

grew so tall

her

resilience

too

she had

faced the

unknown

recreated

anew

from that day

forth

through

every

season

of her life

she

knew

authenticity

what

she

needed

to do…

and

so do you!

MM c 2015

Monsters and Demons

Everyday
my
inner child
must face
the monsters
under
my bed,
every moment,
I must listen
to the demons
inside my
head,
do you know
what is it like
to walk
around in
dread,
carrying
a weight
feels
as heavy
as lead.
I refuse
to remain
in this
victimisation
today,
so I order
you monsters
to just
fade to grey,
hey all you
demons
I no longer
hear
what you say,
I am a force
to be reckon with
so come on
let’s play.
MM 2015

Courage to Feel!

I know

at times

I do not

invest

enough

love into

my relationships

as I am

so busy

hiding inside

my fragile

vulnerability

do not

for

one minute

think that

I love you

any less

it is that

I love you

so much

but

it scares

the hell

out of

me.

There

I said it

from

a vulnerable

loving soul

for

today

I felt

brave

enough

to do so

today

I did not

think

you would

laugh

at my

neediness

nor

did I

feel

you would

ridicule

my sensitively

I hoped

you

would

not reject

me

so even though

I felt so

small

I still

found the

courage

to tell

you

all.

MM 15

Things to do today!

Smile

at a stranger

climb

a tree

tell someone

special

how much

they

mean to

me

catch

a fresh

breath

notice

the autumn

colours

all around

listen to nature

such a beautiful

sound

tell my mother

I love her

tell my father

he rocks

I may even

dare

to wear

odd socks

hug my

inner child

allow her

to express

her

inner fears

her darkness

tell her

she

is doing

her best

she can stop

competing

as life is

not a test

do something

for someone

expect nothing

in return

draw a

picture

read a

book

find something

wild and

exciting

to learn

take a moment

to send

a message

to you

from

my heart

for you

are a

masterpiece

yes,

you are

pure

art.

MM15