Pillow-Talk!

You

are

just

not

good

enough

nor do you have

a pretty face

you are incompetent

in fact you are a

pointless

waste

of

space

you are fat

you are ugly

unlovable

unkind

selfish

self-righteous

useless

out-of-your-f**king-mind

insignificant

low performance review

not as bright has him

nor as clever as her

nothing

not even

good enough

to you

pointless

hopeless

a generational disgrace

rude

discourteous

insensitive

stepping out of line

get back

in your place

you are a moron

a jerk

an excuse

a mistake

you are pretentious

meaningless

plastic

a fake

good for nothing

never amount

to anything

conceited

false pride

keep your feelings and

optioned loud mouth

well hidden

deep inside

you

are

a

failure

disappointment

silly

overly sensitive fool

under achiever

dummy

dense

did not do well

at school

day dreamer

lazy

a pathetic

lonely fool

attention seeker

drama queen

bad behaviour

ostentatious

obscene

display

of

helplessness

developmental crisis

mental health

depression

suicide ideation

emotional wreckage

countless therapy

sessions

making sense

of worthlessness

understanding past tense

all these dogmatic voices

inside my head

awake me in the morning

follow me around

all day

eventually take me to bed

internalised

self-hatred

whispering

sweet

nothing

in my burning ear

ingested self-loathing

now it is I

whom does not care

toxic

learnt behaviour

creates violent danger

reflections

in a stranger

wearing more

baggage than myself

co-dependence

wounded children

with an enormous

lack of self

fragile thick skin

begins to break

as my true essence

starts to emerge

self-abuse

shall not continue

as I struggle

to be heard

deep inside

self-compassion

the key to unlock

self-hate

is forgiveness

of those abusive others

loving kindness

universal grace

spreading love

understanding

creates a home

a brighter place!

 

MedusaMoon c2016

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